She says they just do the most normal things… buy groceries work in the garden…
The things I miss about having her around…
I am doing my best to figure out how to GAL but there is not much I like to do alone…
I had a good sleep this afternoon… but the black clouds are still around me…
I thought it through…
Last night I watched my “WIFE” close herself off to me and open herself to the new man…
That means the deathblow to my little family… when it looked like it was dead but there was a chance to resurrect it from the grave…
I know others have come back from more trying times… but unless the new “BF” pulls the plug my “WIFE” won’t…
If there is to be conflict with them It will come down to a problem with her schedule and the distance between them… but if she likes him enough and it looks like she does… She will change for him…
Until last night I believed otherwise because of her quest for a career… but she is going for him…
Hard to deal with this on a couple extra levels…
Where’s my Justice… she is able to find a “great” guy in such a short time that she matches so well with…
I know it was more of her issues that failed our marriage but it feels like the new “BF” is such a good match / catch similar interests etc.… that the loving husband is no comparison.
Makes me feel like a failure… on all levels because she claims he so much like me… except with the added bonus of all the fun stuff he does that she likes…
I’m not trying to wallow in self-pity… just understand and cope with these feelings that I had put away and was moving forward happily from… Then she opens to me just enough to bring it all back… and crash me back to dark places…
How do I move forward from here?
What do I need to do to reclaim my dignity… pride… self worth…
