1. My Wife and I are sperated... heading full speed for divorce... He has no idea how long we have been seperated NOR does he know about the unresolved feelings we have with each other...
2. As a father I DO care about what happens to Kids even kids that are not my own
3. He is not a scumbag...
4. It is not a Guess about what he would do / feel my Ex told me he would drop her if she expressed any residual feelings towards me and I believe her from the look af fear in her eyes
This Guy is the real deal decent man... it is my EX who is not being upfront with him...
Having been hurt this bad... in the heart and soul I do not wish this on any other person... hence I DO care about this Guy even if it is just as a person.
Now I don't plan to send the letter... I just needed to get the word out of my head where I could get some support for my feelings...
My wife was SO gaurded with me last night... it hurt so bad... to see her protecting her loyalty to the new Guy of short term rather then her loving husband of long term...
If she was just "screwing" him thats one thing... what she is doing is proceeding full speed ahead with a relationship with him while trying to ignore what is still between us...
I have gotten some medication to help me now combo sleep / anti-deppresion...
Thanks for your "harshness" even tho I dissagree with alot of it ... it does help... the main point i will take away...
