I ran to the pharmacy to get some OTC sleep aides… they seemed to help at first… but it was just another night tossing and turning…
The whole night my brain just keeps composing an Email to send to the “OM”
I know no good can come of this… and I promised my “WIFE” but I cannot stop…
Because if I was this Guy… I would want to know… I don’t know if I will send it but it has to come out of me… at least here in private
Dear “OM”
How do I begin a letter like this? I am sending you this with a desperate plea that you would keep it private… a letter between 2 men who seem to love the same women
I promised her I would do nothing to mess up what she has with you... but she is not being 100% truthful with you...
I am “WIFES” Husband / Ex … She has told me she has never talked about me with you…
You seem like a decent guy full of fun and life I can see why she would be attracted to you…
But you need to know how recently we split and what has been going on…
I haven’t slept for almost 6 days now…
For the past 12 years I have love “WIFE”… I loved her from the moment I saw her and I still love her with all my heart and soul…
We split for the First time in early Dec 2004… got back together early may 2005, split Sept 2005… tried working on it while split till late April 2006…
It has only been barely 3 months… and she met you less then a month after the first split…“WIFE” is on the Rebound… this time it seemed both of us were done… unlike when it was just her… this time it was me who had enough…
Then On July 13th we were discussing some Divorce issues and “WIFE” cracked in front of me… she told me how much she missed me… that you were nice but that you were not me… in 12 years I have never seen her like that…
There was more on the Sunday before I left with the Kids on Holiday and they a wonderful exchange of Text’s between us before you guys left for Camping…
On my Holiday i discovered I still loved her enough to forgive all the heart ache she has put me through and I told her so the Sunday After your trip
She is still in love with me… but she is also starting to Love you… this is killing me… I cant stand that she is taking my Kids to hang out with you… its WAY to soon for that… not that I don’t think you’re a great guy… they have just been torn so much… that adding another “Guy” to their lives now its to much…
I miss her so much… it hurts… I can barely eat and forget sleep… I am going to a Doctor to get some help soon…
“WIFE” is also not eating she feels sick to her stomach all the time…. “WIFE” is torn between you and I… she likes you and even loves many things about you… but she is FAR from whole or over me… and I don’t believe she ever will be over me… I know I won’t really ever be over her…
She has chosen you… and I have given her my blessing… becasue I lover her and wish her to be happy... but for her to do this to you... isn't right...
She plans to stay in Red Deer for at least another year maybe 2 to work on her career… her schedule won’t change she will be a long distance relationship for you for a long time…
I fell horrible to write this to you… she should tell you but she is afraid…
You seem like a decent guy and you deserve a person in your life that is whole and honest and upfront…
She won’t be whole for a long time… and she hasnt talked with you about me at all...
I am worried she is going to hurt you and your Son very badly…
She is making the same mistakes with you that she has done with me...
If you tell her I sent you this it will destroy anything her and I have left…
Whats left of us will degenerate into fighting and anger... and my Kids will be the ultimate loosers...
It will seal my Kids fate... to never have their Mom and Dad back together… it is the greatest risk I have ever taken in my life… but I am taking it for them…
And Sir... I am taking it for you and your son...
I would never advise someone to write a letter like this… but she tells me that you are very much like me… If that were the case… then I would want to know…
You and your Son and My Kids deserve more.
End
Can I send this letter, write it a thousand times cut and past it click that button… break my promise to not “wreck” things
I don’t know…
What is the best that could happen… what is the worst… is it possible to overcome a guy that seems so great and an attraction to him from my “WIFE” that seems so deep…
I’m so very lost again back full circle to the beginning except… I know there is still love in her for me… She has said it herself…
Any longtimers out there reading this please please give some advice
