No sleep... I'm going to try to see a Dr. Today... cant live this way I have a business to run and a life to try and live
"EX" (note change) called last night... saying she is conflicted about having supper with us at my house... it would be betraying her new BF somehow...
I have already bought some nice stuff for supper that I won’t eat on my own...
Fine... I asked how we were supposed to reconnect if she won’t step forward...
I'm not ready to reconnect with you... I’m happy with the "newness" of my Boyfriend...
But he is just a “boyfriend” its not like its more then that…
I will come and hang out for a bit when I pick the kids up…
I replied you realize your messing with our kids lives and his kid by taking them to his place staying over and playing house...
I’m like 2 months to 12 years… don’t you see that…
She says oh you just have to trust me...
She says it's a step back to come back together with me... in front of her friends and family... that she has accomplished so much...
I just wanted to scream at her what kind of world do you live in where you love someone and saving a marriage with them is a STEP BACK!!
I didn’t…
I am at a loss for what to do… she has messed with my heart and soul so badly this time
Can I continue to DB this play it off as if its nothing that she is with this guy…
I was done before and I am done now...
So why do I have this crappy flicker of hope stuck inside me
