Hi Corri, Just wanted to stop in and say thanks for the support over on Chrome's thread. Also, I wanted to tell you that I really commend you for finding your way through the muck and being able to both find your girly self and find some compassion/understanding for your mother. It's a damn hard thing to let go of the fantasy of what mom should be. I still crave that every day of my life. My mom is so fragile that when I was going through some rough stuff, I couldn't tell her because I knew *she* would be devastated and I couldn't face having to comfort her for what I was going through. I always thought if I could just find one person in my life to believe in me...and much like you, I realized recently that *I* had to be that person for myself. What a concept!
I also want to say that you are just radiating joy when you speak of your new girliness! I'm so happy you have found her/you. I also carried a lot of anger towards women, I hated anything they did that made them appear weak/frivolous/needy because it made me think that men would think *I* was also that way and I didn't want to be seen that way. I also figured out that I was jealous of women who could be friendly or flirty and not have to worry about the repurcussions. Kwis? I felt like I was always trying to live my life so that no one could ever come back and say "She was asking for it." and I hated the women who perpetuated that idea.
Don't want to get too deep before I go to bed so I'll stop here. Just wanted to say thanks for sharing all that you have shared...and a big girly hug to you Bear
The voyage of discovery is not in seeking new landscapes but in having new eyes.
--Marcel Proust
