This is absolutely awesome for you!!!! I can so very easily relate to what you just said. I was...in my Mom's words "the best dressed tomboy she'd ever seen". I think I just managed when I was growing up (thanks to my folks) to blend being feminine....and doing the "boys" activities that I enjoyed. I even have a photo somewhere of me climbing a tree for a photo-session, in a tight a-line skirt and 4" heels LOL. I guess that right there gives you the picture of what my Mom was talking about LOL.
I can relate to what you are saying though from my teenage years...to my very early twenties. I sort of fought being "feminine", or at least being perceived that way. I still dressed nicely...but my behavior wasn't typically feminine. I tried to be too strong, hid too much emotionally....and unfortunately that came across to many people as arrogant, defensive....and well, just pushed people away from me.
This discovery about yourself is such a breakthrough!!! KUDOS to you my friend for getting to the point where you were able to recognize it when it came flying out of your mouth.
I'm so very happy for you, I'm doing my Snoopy Dance!!!!
