Well I'll say one thing Corri... you made me grin reading your post!
I bet you'd be one of those girl friends that would slap me upside the head and tell me to 'snap out of it!'
Quote: I was piss poor with boundaries when I was married and that created many of the problems we had... and when I finally began to set some... jesus it was hard to stand by them.
Oh yesss... i know all about this... I don't think I had a boundary one in our relationship until all this crap started and I discovered what a friggin boundary was!... and even though we are D'd it is still hard to stick to them... to point to the line in the concrete and say... 'nuh, uh buddy boy... I'm NOT taking that cr*p from you anymore!'
Quote: Somedays you feel amazing, you have the courage to smile, things go well... and then the next day, you feel like you've been dumped in a toilet that doesn't quite flush properly...
Yes... good, great... WONDERFULLY ACCURATE analogy! Just gotta pull myself out of that toilet and catch a few breaths... even if they stink!
Quote: Every day, set aside some time for you... For those 15 minutes, you get to remember what it feels like not to feel bad... or even numb
You are soooo right... I have to do this... i have to do this... i need to do this... i NEED to do this... (maybe if i repeat it enough times... i'll actually REMEMBER to do this!) The journal thing does sound like an excellent idea... I love to write... but then when I write it is fantasy and NOT about me... probably it's really an escape from me... This learning to 'look' at yourself is hard... living for YOURSELF is hard! 'Listening' to that voice though... that's getting easier. Much easier.
Okay... Try to hold onto your patience... I will go and buy "Mama Gena's Owner's and Operator's Guide to Men" (sounds like a hoot) forthwith... immmediately... right awayyyyyyy... (can you hear my voice getting fainter as I run out the door?)
