Thank you for your words , I want to think that my H really does want me that much, but then I think, is it all just physical. He says no. I know men are more visual than women are, I guess I am a more conservative girl.. I mean, I rarely object to anything he wants to do.. only that I still don't feel right watching "movies" even though he says its between us.. I guess he needs that.. I don't understand it. I appreciate you opening up with your life and I hope you are patient with your W.. I know I am trying harder with my H. I just hope that he only feels this way about me and won't ever stray... The internet is a bad thing.. I really don't have a "big" problem with him looking at it.. or should I? He says it's only when he feels rejected by me.. whether that is true or not remains to be seen...