Thank you for your feedback. I am sorry I sounded so short, I just didn't think people wanted to read the novel I could have ended up writing about what had happened. I just tried to make is really short and be in more detail about what has been going on lately. I know what I did was the worst thing anyone can do to someone and I hated myself so much for it. I have been seeing two therapists to help me. I have been through a lot and think I have accomplished with my self esteem, etc. I realize a lot of things that I could have done differently in our marriage to make things better and have been doing that now to show him that I am a better person. I am just trying to do the little things right now to show him because I am afraid that if I push too much he will run. I talk to the in laws all the time now and we have a much better realationship then we did in the past. That is one of the things he really wanted. I am really happy with how close I am with them now. I hope I am making progress in patching up our marriage.
