I haven't posted in a long time because I haven't had much time. Long story short. H27 M30 S2. I had an affair in dec one night. I know it was an extremely stupid thing to do and I definitly learned my lesson. I found something in OM that our marriage was missing for a long time (about a year) and instead of fixing it with MC I ran. I went threw a MLC from dwelling on being a stay home mom, marriage problems, and not feeling like I mattered anymore. We seperated March 1st. He moved out because I asked him to. The night he moved out I knew I was making a huge mistake by letting him leave. I just needed time to myself to think about me and what I wanted in my life. Three weeks later I realized a lot. I wanted the marriage to work, and I don't want my son to grow up like this. Well he ended up meeting someone. He is still seeing her, at least that is what he is saying. I read the DB book and have done the list of thinds to do. My H has tested the waters with me a little bit and I think I might be making progress. At first I wrote the letters, sent him texts, called him, begging and apologizing for everything I have done that destroyed this marriage and asked that he give me a chance to fix things and make them right again. At first he said no. Then I get a call to meet him at the house before memorial day. I meet up with him and talked a little bit but not about us. We made love and he kissed me and hugged me good bye. I was so happy but then I got the cold shoulder for a week or so. We talked after that on and off about our S2. I went to visit the in laws because my father in law had heart surgery the weekend before 7/4. I was staying in a campground and my H stayed at his parents. He called me and asked if he could come over. He was flirting with me and we talked for a couple hours on how our friends' marriages are getting better and he said it takes time. Then one thing led to another and we made love again. He again hugged and kissed me good bye. I called him two days later and asked him if he thought we were making progress and he said he doesn't know. I asked him if he wanted me to file for divorce and he said he has not made that decision yet. I then asked if he was seeing anyone and he said he had someone on the side. I was so upset, I called my mother in law. Apparently she and the rest of the family have been pressuring my H to fix things with us. She said he does love me and she knows that he does what to work things out but he is playing a game for some reason. Then I found out he just bought a Harley...I was shocked. So I continue to talk to him as if I don't know anything. His bday is 7/11 so I kept asking if I could do something for him since I usually have a huge bash for him every year. He said he was not feeling good and was going to take our S2 and stay home. I was so upset I wrote a 5 page letter but never gave it to him. I then find out with the OW threw him a surprise bday bash. Yeh I was mad. By the way OW is 25 and has a D5. So last weekend I went out with the girls and I kept hearing stories about my H. I was so upset that when my H dropped of our son I had to give him the letter. Our son is going through a hard time with this. He sat on the couch and covered his eyes and started crying when my H was going to leave. I think that hit my H right in the heart and then I gave him the letter. I didn't get a response from the letter but on Monday night he called and asked if he could park his bike in the driveway so he can go fishing with a friend. I said fine. He ended up coming over early and talked. I went up to him and kissed him. I had to. He kissed me back. Then he went fishing and text me to stay awake because he wanted to come in after fishing. I did and we talked till 1am and again made love. He then has been texting me or calling me except for this past weekend. I thought we were on a good track but now I am nervous that something might have happened with the OW to make him back off. I will not call him. I want to see if he calls me. So you think I am making progress or do you think that he just wants his cake and eat it too?
