Quote: Just a thought but you also represent everything that she walked away from and I don't care how rosy those rose-colored glasses are, the WAS HURTS because of that.
The attitude is likely not so much about you, but that she's mad at herself for still being affected when the D was supposed to be the answer to everything....
Actually that's pretty much what I have thought all along when she's gotten an attitude. It's almost like she can't bear to come out here to the house. Early on she would come out two nights a week while I was working and often fixed dinner here for the kids; that gradually gave way to here taking them out to dinnner or back to her place and she rarely is here for more than a few minutes now.
Maybe the act of dropping the kids off here just reinforces the fact that they aren't with her and she doesn't see them very much. And having to drop them off and knowing that S11 misses her A LOT, may be tearing her up now. Of course that was HER doing, not mine, but I realize it's a whole lot easier to be mad at someone else than yourself!
I just could think of nothing I'd done recently that was so awful... Oh, sure I didn't reply to an email she sent last Sun pm b/c I was away and my Mom was here... I didn't even read it until Tue AM and then it was a moot point, (telling me she'd trim S11's bangs this week, but I had just made him let me trim them! Poorly I might add! He was Pi$$ed! ) even told her that when she asked about the email Thu. on the phone. In fact she said that by then it didn't matter. So that shouldn't be it. IDK, maybe by me asking for my books back it is becoming clear to her that I'm starting to move along.
Amy, in the twisted MLC thinking, is seeing your X start to move along and GAL grounds to say "HA, SEE, you're NOT what I need and want, b/c YOU'RE not there for me now!" Is that Possible?
BUT, I realized last night, I don't have to figure this out. This is not my issue/problem to solve. If she wants to carry around anger well, that's a 10lb. sack of crap she's welcome to.
Anyway, I figure I'll let things lie for a week or so and see what happens. I don't feel like pushing buttons and right now I'm fine, so I don't need to stir things up by telling her to get her stuff and be gone...
Sad thing is I'm starting to see that even were she to choose to come back, she just might not ever be capable of having a real, mature R, w/ both of us on even footing and both of us w/ a healthy libido... She just seems to want to be the victim...
) even told her that when she asked about the email Thu. on the phone. In fact she said that by then it didn't matter. So that shouldn't be it. IDK, maybe by me asking for my books back it is becoming clear to her that I'm starting to move along.
