Not sure what's going on. Hanging out to find out.
Physical affection has mostly stopped. But actions and words seem to signify she's closer. Don't know but I'm considering myself to be in a "being tested" period.
I figure if I act needy in any way I'll blow it. So I don't ever initiate kissing with her. She took over initiating and then stopped.
Right now I'm studying Frank_d's thread. I'm amazed at the similarities.
I'm really also trying to pull off the 180 of doing nothing also.
I seem to be strongly regaining control. Becoming the Alpha. And I've noticed it working. I've also noticed that she has deffered to me even in the smallest things such as where to sit in a restaurant. May have been doing it all along. When she talks to people she says things like "Well H and I think..." She's basing her opinions on mine.
As I predicted she stayed up the hill a few days and then returned and now acts as if separation never happened.
I'm also working hard at not being affected by it all. Trying to get complete control of my emotions.
That has been a heck of a journey for me. I was thinking yesterday how ironic it is. Pre bomb drop I considerred myself to have no emotions. They were pretty well buried. Even as a kid I recognized that about myself. Then it became the complete opposite, they came out and I had no control of them.
