Hey, I'm totally here for you. All the positive vibes and mojo your direction...
Next - all I can say is that you have done arguably what is the hardest thing possible in the process of DR/DB - the infamous Paul and Anne 180. The memory of when I did it back in January is about as fresh in my memory today as the day I did it. I wanted to throw up.
But.....within the next couple days it was amazing how GREAT *I* felt. I felt back in control of *MY* life. I'm not sure if it is because we come to that realization that needs can be secondary to "wants", not sure. But I know that even today, my mind set is soooooo much more positive overall - which in turn has helped my R. Re-read some stuff by Frank_D lately - he has really has nailed it on the head regarding taking control of our life. Re-read my threads from when I did my 180 and how my WAW acted afterwards. The key here is for you to not waver and stay lovingly detached.
Put another way, have a frame for yourself about you and where you life is going. Then, think "I'm going here with my life...and I'd love for you to come along....and I'll miss you if you don't, but I'm going anyway".
So, I'll be there in spirit for you tomorrow AM. Good luck. Get some rest, look and smell your best and you will be fine. It's funny - whenever we had MC sessions, I would ALWAYS be lookin' and smellin' my finest. She always seemed to notice.
Also, GREAT on the tatoo. You're too funny. About two weeks after I moved out, I got one two - the Chinese symbols for Faith, Patience, and Love. Months later, I got another one, a Phoenix on the other arm. Risin' from the ashes baby.
So good luck....and remember you are Xue - great person, great husband....
Onward and upward!
Sven
Never sacrifice the great for the good. Sometimes the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair.
