We spent a few extra days. Had a great time. Did a lot of hiking looking at property and bought some acreage. Going to build our High country training facility. Pretty exciting.
Well we slept in the same bed but no sex. Thwarted at least partially by that time of the month.
It really seems more confusing than ever I guess. Things seem to continually get better and better. She calls me honey occassionally now and reaches out to touch me occassionally also. Yet she's holding out. I really don't know what's in her mind.
I have still noticed changes. Over the last couple of days she has snapped at sensitive subjects "Why do you think everything that comes out of my mouth is negative". However she is only mad for a few minutes at these occurrences. She'll ussually take a few minutes to calm down and then things are fine.
These are probably partially caused by the fact that I don't walk on eggshells anymore. I very lovingly tell it like it is. I don't even realize I do it until the snap occurs. I don't think I say things in any sort of blaming way but she is certainly sensitive in these areas. She has stated several times how she is working on becoming more positive and she has made strides.
So I think this is progress.
I help out at the local cable station and was there last night. She called three times. I think my GAL activities make her a little nervous. She's going to her sisters to visit this weekend. I think I'll go out.
I was very proud of her on the trip. She hiked with me in scorching heat for many miles through rugged terain and didn't complain one bit. As a matter of fact she enjoyed it. This is certainly not the city girl I was once married to. She used to bitch about every little discomfort. Getting her out in nature was miserable. But this was a lot of fun. I was flabbergasted. We hiked and four wheeled for several days. Some serious four wheeeling in a monsoon. She had a blast despite the danger and discomfort. I like this new W a whole lot. She's far more of a companion than she ever was. But I also need more than a companion.
Just can't figure it but I also know better than to spend too much energy trying.
