Please understand that I would love nothing better than for you to prove me wrong. I would love nothing better than for you to put your girls' well-being above your own romantic desires. I would love nothing better than for you to decide to take charge of your life and quit playing the victim. I would love for you to decide that you ARE going to change, and then do it.
But I don't think that's going to happen, because I think you'd rather live life as a victim. You're doing it yet again with the whole "RB was so mean to me" routine. Feeling sorry for yourself is so much easier for you than doing anything about it.
Finally, Emily, I don't think you're worthless. It's precisely the opposite. Your life is worth so much that it hurts me deeply to see you throwing it away. It pains me to see you looking for casual sex. My spirit cries out for you when flip-flop between saying that your kids need your H as a father and that your H is an abuser that you need to protect your kids from. I want you to have a full and abundant life, full of peace and joy, and it makes me sad to see you on the self-destructive path that you're on right now.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)
