Emily-I have gone through allthe emotions you have gone through. And I am the LBS that in the beginning was the WAS. I will tell you that all of the emotions that you are experiencing I go through almost everyday. I have driven a few (AmyC) batty on here and have experienced the same reaction. You are a Christian, and from my understaning, we mess up. We are not perfect only one is perfect and he resides upstairs. Don't pay attention to those who are judging you . If you say you want to go F%$K someone on this board or cheat then say it. No one should judge you. They should however tell you what the consequences are with compassion. I have screwed up considerably and some people think I am crazy on this board. This is the most difficult thing I have ever had to face. I am more scared in this fight than I have ever been in anything in my life. I don't blame you for wanting to retaliate. I know I fight it all the time. But don't do it. It is temporary and will only make a bad sitch worse. My W "moved" on I think it hurt us even more for trying to work it out. We only need one jackass in the family not two. I can only imagine how you feel but hang in there. You can talk to me on the Seperated thread if you would like. And eveyone else on here: If we can't vent and act stupid and say things that make no sense, then where can we go? Tread lightly.
