I really haven't followed your sitch much, but really kind of picked up on the last tirade. I think BJ, GH and others here really have some good sound advice for you. Look, I know how frustrating this all is, and I have to admit, that at the beginning of my ordeal, I had many of the same raw emotions that you are currently experiencing. In fact, I had many, many negative emotions....and probably thought about a lot of the stuff that you voiced here.
Yes, it is unfair. Yes, it sucks. But, you have children who need you and a full life ahead of you. You have to find a balance and find a way to deal with these emotions in a positive, productive way. Maybe you need outside help, maybe you can pull yourself up by the bootstraps and find peace. Whatever it is you need to do, please do it.
I'm pulling for you and hope today finds you in better spirits.
Out of curiosity, where in PA do you reside? Do you have access to resources that would allow you to seek counseling?
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
