OK I have an honest question . . it's probably all wrong for this site but hell . . . why not.
When do I get to move on in my "love life". I understand that before I get into another R I have to work on myself so that I do not repeat this cycle. But does that mean in 5 or 6 months when the D is final I can't start dating again.(I cannot go that long . . AYE ) I mean by then my H will probably be remarried . . .
I know that's thinking in the future . . I am just fielding for opinions here. I want to start making a plan for myself . . and I don't want to be "taken advantage" of again . .as a rebound thing.
I can not even believe that you would be able to think about your needs in such a manner. We all have needs that need to be met and let me tell some of us have gone a long time with out any physical contact. Sure I'm young too and could have my fair share of guys, but I know that it is within God's will for my marriage to be restored. Each of us know that if we truly want our marriage to work we must be faithful even if our spouses are not. Do you get that you are no where near even being ready to be with someone else?
Like Amy said get a frickon toy. Never thought I would resort to that, but what the heck! I've been to quite a few sex toy parts since my husband has left. Guess what? It's really not that bad
I can only imagine how sick and tired your friends and family must be and especially your husband with how you flip flop so much. Either you want your marriage or you don't. It's not about what Kevin wants or what your family desires for you, but what Emily wants!!!!
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Yeah alright. I'm [censored] up I get it. It's all my fault everything went to [censored]. I'm a bad mother because I'm ready to move on. I'm [censored] because . . . well because I am what I am.
Thanks all . . I'm out.
NO .. . ya know what? I'm so sorry that at 18 I got pregnant . . for my H. I'm SORRY that I AM DOING THE BEST I CAN FOR MY GIRLS. Forgive the hell outta me for using EVERYTHING I have. Which isn't much. FORGIVE me for the fact that at 21 (well 22) MY H GETS TO START OVER . . . and I'm left with the baggage. I wouldn't give them away for the world. BUT I don't get to walk away like he does and start over. If I was single it would BE FINE for me to think about having a boyfriend. BUT HELL NO . . I have to stay alone because my H is choosing to run off with a WHORE.
FORGIVE THE HELL OUTTA ME
Another thing last time I checked it takes two to make a baby so don't go putting all this crap on Kevin. If you had your baby just to make Kevin happy then that's all the evidence we need in you showing us how little you value yourself. Quit blaming everyone else and take a good look in the mirror. You can only control yourself. Doing the best for your girls would be getting your crap together. Guess what? Your not there!! Let us know when your done with the boo-hooing. Don't worry about your husband he will have to deal with his actions one day. But, as for you, you know better, but you would rather stay at the bottom. So keep feeling sorry for yourself, and let us know how it works out for you.
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