When you're all done rolling around in self pity, you know where we are.

I want you to do one thing tonight, though.
When your babies are asleep.
Look at their little faces and whisper to them that their lives will never be any better than Mommy's because Mommy isn't willing to pull herself up by the bootstraps and make the necessary changes so they don't have to suffer through the same dysfunction.

Then go on to sleep.

You can wake up in the morning and continue this destructive pattern you're on.

You are the only one that can turn this around.

YOU.