Quote: Start by going one day. Just one day. Don't call him, take a call from the OW, respond to any MySpace messages from her trashy crew... don't do it for one day.
I dare you, Emily.
The rest of your life is depending on it
OK . . starting right now I won't call. It's going to be hard because as I said he was going to come see us this weekend.
I just talked to him. . he was a little upset about the VM that I left him. I told him I was sorry . . that I was panicked and I knew I shouldn't have left it. He told me it was OK . . I asked him not to be mad at me. He said he wasn't. I asked him if we were "OK" then. (I ment not bitter and fighting by this.) He said sure. I don't know what's going on this weekend. I had to get off the phone because Emily was here. He said he might try to call later. When we hung up I said well I love you . . he said I love you too.
hmm interesting. Means nothing . . but it's still interesting. I feel like an idiot. I wish I knew if he was back with OW . . but I don't want to call her. Not even close. Starting right now I won't call. If he doesn't show up or at least call it'll be hard because I know where he will be this weekend. WITH HER. That's going to drive me crazy.
I was doing really well for about 2 days . . . and then all of this crap happened again . . and I can't seem to get back there. I thought it would faster this time . . but it's not. I wanted to just snap right back . . but I can't seem to.
I'm tired of whirlwind emotions. I want that peace I had 5 days ago back . . that felt nice.
