GH I'm obviously not any of those things or else he would have never been able to walk away.

I know my attitude sucks . . . sorry.
I'm VERY depressed today.
Can't seem to pull myself up at all.
I just feel like $hit.
I mean she calls with OM and calls him an a$$hole wants nothing to do with him and he leaves me again to chase her.
I stand through everything trying to smile and I always take him back with open arms and I'm worthless in his eyes.
His girls mean nothing to him. . .

I just don't understand it.