BUT . . when the hell do I get to feel OK again? I am NOT putting myself through a divorce.. I get that I have to own my mistakes . . but why the hell doesn't he have to own his? If it were up to me we would at least try. . . BUT I don't get to make a choice. I HAVE TO LIVE WITH HIS CHOICE . . I have to live with being divorced with two kids. I know that I can make choices from there . . It's just hard to see out of this lovely hole I've dug myself into.
