Your words actually comforted me. I don't know if Kevin will ever go to God. He wasn't exactly raised that way. His Grandfather was a pastor . . . but his parents do not really believe. My father is a pastor . . . as much as I thought church was "drag" as a teenager . . I realize that it's been a BIG help. I honestly that has a lot to do with getting back to Emily . . is getting back the peace of God that I lost.
I'm so scared to let go because I'm worried that I'll never have a chance to grab back ahold of him. I know that right now it's what "WE" need. . . but I'm scared he'll move WAY on with his life and get remarried to the OW . . . and then sure I'll be able to proceed with someone else. . . but that's not what I want. I said my vows once . . . and I ment them . . . PHHHHHTTTT . . . . It's a hard call to make . . . maybe he'll make it for me and just not call anymore. He's good at that.
