Quote: I prayed lastnight before I went to bed. I told God I didn't know what to do or where to turn. But that I needed his peace and I wanted to be on the right path and if he would show me I would follow. Then once again my H called and said our marriage was over.
Emily,
Listen to me. That phone call was not a sign from God that your marriage should be over. I know that because Kevin has not placed himself in a position to be used like that by God, to answer your prayers. Do not let the enemy deceive you like that. God's will is that your marriage overcome these issues, be restored and be a testimony of Him, His grace, His mercy and His unconditional love. The problem, as with most of us, is that only one of us is seeking the Lord's will. That's okay, too, though because one person can stand as an intercessor and if they are in rightstanding with God, all of hell cannot prevent His will from coming to pass. All of us that are standing and claiming His Word for our marriages have to check ourselves DAILY to ensure our walk is upright. I can tell you, we're never perfect. Not a day passes that I do not need forgiveness. But His mercy is new EACH MORNING. So though we stumble, He upholds us in His right hand.
As you have been lost, so is your husband. I daresay he is even more lost than you have been. The only difference is he has yet to realize what he needs. You have at least begun to talk to God. How much longer until Kevin will? We do not know. It is much harder for a man to turn to God. That is because it is so ingrained in them to BE the MAN, the provider, the strong one...etc... Emily, you are Kevin's wife. None of the crap going on changes that. You are in this position because YOU are the strongest one of the two of you. For sure it does not feel that way. But trust me, God knows better. I like something I put on our church sign once. It was this... "God does not call the qualified He qualifies the called".
Think about that.
And let Him finish the good work He has begun in you.
Then, having been strengthened, you will really learn how to stand. For yourself AND for your marriage.
