No one wants to be alone. You are not alone. You have us and your wonderful girls.
Quote: Let me vent for today and tomorrow I will be better . . .
You say that now but can you really say you will be better? No, you can't so you might as well start now. You have had your chance to vent, now it is your chance to shine!!! Get out and enjoy life. Take your kids to the park or outside for a walk. There is always something to do to keep busy. You have too much free time on your hands. The best way to get through this is to stay busy.
You made the comment he sounded worried when you didn't answer the phone until a couple calls. See, it works. When my H left, I would call him 10 times or at least til he answered the phone. He told me to call and leave a message and he would call me back. He doesn't practice what he preaches. He will call the house phone and if we don't answer, he calls our daughters phone or mine. He will keep calling all 3 phones until someone answers. He has called up to 13 times in a 20 minutes time span. First thing he asks, where were you? He always sounds worried. No matter if they say they aren't, they are. They say things that they don't mean. They don't want us thinking they are thinking about us.
Starting now, you are finished your venting and you will start living.....