He already has called her and talked for quite awhile I guess. . . Trying to get back with her. He told her he misses her and such.
He is trying to leave me for her again only right now she doesn't want him.
I don't want to make the decision to end my M. Which is what I feel I have to do if I want a clear head and a good life. I don't want to be the one who opts out. I don't want out at all. But he is soo confused and he obviously doesn't love me . . . clearly!
I just wanted to be good enough . . . I know that my self worth comes from myself but it's always a pleasure to know that someone else thinks you're great too.
I feel sooo low. . . I was getting up ON MY OWN . . and he freakin kicked me down again. Well OK . . . . so I more a less ran right into his waiting foot . . but still. He couldn't have just stayed gone . . oh no . . . I would have been fine. Now it's going to take me time to get there again.
