However he said he talked to the OW tonight because her man's phonecall really bothered him. He doesn't plan on stopping here this weekend . . he will going straight "home" (down where she lives).
I am falling hard! Why I don't know. All my progress shot in the ass. God I feel so stupid.
Why can't I turn off my heart . . I need to think with my head . . . rational people would NOT stay in this situation.
He as much as said he loves her more . . . he said . . if he was with her he would think about me A LITTLE and A LOT of her if he was with me.
WTF?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to go try to sleep but I know I won't . . . I am soo hurt . . . I need to pray . . . but just feel like screaming. I just need to walk away from this situation. I need to make the decision to find my girls another daddy someday. I need to make the decision to make myself a better person. BUT . . . I LOVE HIM
