I'm getting tense tonight. I don't know exactly why . . . I just feel very nervious. I am trying not to allow myself to be bent too far . . . while remaining here for my H. I don't want to let him flip-flop around. . . he hasn't yet . . . but he just sounded so upset. Boy did I feel bad . . I feel like I did something wrong and he doesn't want to be with me. Aye . . . This has got to get easier . . . I have to find my peaceful place again.
