Thanks so much GH and Muddle . . . I guess the way I feel about it is that I do want more time to think it out. I don't want to be "leading" my H on . . . but I need to see if he's going to change and stay that way! I don't want to turn him out or tell him that I "can't" be in a R with him . . . not now that he ACTUALLY wants to be with me. I think that would be diasterous. Is it alright for me to keep putting up the R front for him . . as long as neither of us ventures into R talk? I know I sure won't . . .
