I think you are at one of those places I have been talking about the past couple days. You need to make a choice, one that there is no clear right or wrong in. I think there are people here (maybe myself included but I'm not here for that) that believe that you are going back into this WAY too soon and WAY too trusting. Then there are people like Muddle who probably understand that through it all, you still love your H and maybe he loves you too. Maybe this thing "fixed" you both so that you both now know what to do OR not do in the future.
Emily, we have heard a LOT from you, which is good, but the bad news is that we all remember the bad things you said about H. We remember that you said he has an anger problem and was abusive. We remember you said you were afraid for the safety of your girls. Unfortunately, we may remember that stuff more than we remember that you say you love your H, and that he loves you too.
It's time to make your decision Emily, carefully, with all you now know supporting that decision. YOU have to live with the results, not us or your parents or friends.
