You said (I am going to go see the MC by myself for the first appt., so that maybe she can give me some pointers/tasks to help me further improve my mindset. Then once the nursing is done, we'll go together and hopefully begin finally connecting with each other, something that has been delayed by life and poor choices for far too long.)
So...when are you going to come clean with your W? Or have you done so already? I'm glad you two are going to go to MC, but "IF" you intend to seek continued MC without telling her what has been going on then you are allowing your W to live a false life without her knowledge...and that wouldn't be fair to her. Or do you intend to come clean with her during the 1st session the two of you attend? If so, I can understand doing that...just checking.
I just know that the longer you go without coming clean (if you haven't already) the easier it is to rationalize....not doing it. The fact is....it will still need to be done.
