Chrome, GOOD LUCK to you. You and your family have a hard road ahead of you, but I have confidence that you can do this. This last post of yours is finally worth responding to..there is no false bravado, no guilt-ridden emotion (as you described it), none of the weirdness that has been plaguing your thread for a while. I think we all knew something was up but couldn't figure it out. LFL didn't have a current thread so I have to admit that her presence in this web of deceit was somewhat of a surprise, though not completely since the seeds of this mess have been sown since day 1. Too much flirting and off-board convos between two people who are already struggling...that's a recipe for disaster.
I don't think it's true that you have to avoid female friends but you will have to reframe your idea of what a female friend IS. I do not have male friends in the same way that I did when I was single. I do this because I don't trust myself entirely. Truly, I love men and could find a reason to fall in love with just about anyone. Do I trust myself to have a male friend who was a confidante that I spent a lot of time with, one on one? Oh heavens no. I'm not saying that other people can't pull this off without a hitch--I'm just not one of them.
I suppose what I am trying to say to you is this: Get real with yourself. Know yourself. Make your plan of attack accordingly. Stop looking to the rest of the world to get a clue about what YOU should do.
Get help with your addictions before they trash your life.
We're pulling for you; stop by and let us know how it's going.
