- Get on some antidepressants. - Cease ALL contact with the other woman forever. - Come clean with your wife.
If you do the above, in about 3 weeks, your emotions will return to some semblance of normalcy.
At the end of three weeks, you can make a plan to clean up the mess you have made of your marriage and your life.
Approaches differing from the above plan will likely net you less than optimum results.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.