Chrome, When you are swimming in a pool of sh!t, it only looks like your whole world is sh!t. I can see that the majority of you is a good caring person. Bad thing about sh!t is that it stinks, and as long as it is anywhere near you you can smell it and that can make you think that everything you touch is sh!t. Don't fall for that stinkin' thinkin'. Look carefully at yourself, at the positive accomplishments you've made at work, the positives of your family, the effort you've put in to save your R, even if you didn't jump in with both feet. We know there is a decent person in there, we've seen glimpses. Go dark if you need to, but do remember that we are here to help you out, and to give you a kick in the shorts when you need one. We care about you, and you will not be forgotten. Take the time you need, focus your energies on yourself, your wife and your kids. You can do it! Most of all, please come back here when you need a shoulder to cry on or a helping hand to pick you back up.