I am going dark for awhile, but I do want to say one or two things before I go. First, I was not on the "prowl" here, although I can understand why some people would think so. When things were going badly between OW and I, I unintentionally let someone into my heart and unintentionally got into hers. I am not trying to say that my feelings were false or dodge the issue, I just want you to know that I didn't come here trying to find another OW. It is just something that happened, and when things got bad again, I made an even dumber move. I will admit that I am searching for love and adoration more than I should, and that is something I have to learn to control.
Second, I do understand the no communication off the board thing. I can see off-board communication being a good thing, so long as the topics are about being friends, just like you would do with IRL people. But when the contact becomes a lifeline, the danger of improper EC rears its ugly head.
Like I said, I am going away for awhile. Right now I don't even feel human, more like a rabid dog that needs to be put out of its misery. I need to spend some time looking in myself, wading through all the sh!t that comprises the majority of who I am, and trying to find that hidden nugget of goodness that must be in there somewhere. I'll find it and hold onto it and maybe it will grow. Who knows, maybe a half-way decent person might emerge.
When I am done, whether that is weeks, months, or years from now, I'll return and if any of you are still here I will let you know that Chrome is back. The real Chrome. Thank you so much for trying to help me. Again, please just try to forget me. Who I am right now is not worth any of your emotional energy.
Be well all, peace, and God's blessings.
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
