Chrom. Lil once spoke of a fire within everyone. The fire has heat, light, and smoke. The heat and light might be something like what powers us and eventually leads to a feeling of satisfaction/accomplishment. There is also a path that heat and light needs to travel so you as an individual can thrive/continue to live. Block the path and there will be trouble. What is blocking the path to your heat, light, and smoke?
Somethings "we" do the blocking ourselves by way of perception, somethings other people do things that influence us, that leads to blocking (real or perception) the heat and light but the heat, light, and smoke are still there, non-the-less.
Lil told me to look for a channel, a conduit, a heat duct, to re connect to the heat and light from the fire's source. The conduit/heat duct/ pathway might be an old one that needs realigning or cleaning, or maybe you need to build a new pathway.
I think if you shared with someone what your blockage feels like to you, you might be able to let our some of the choking smoke from the fire that is with in you, and to be able to start feeling some of the heat and light that is there too.
<I added the smoke part Lil>
Are you talking about what ever is troubling you, with a professional or an empathetic person that has some skills in ways you need support?
And forget about feeling like people "might" be looking down on you. I am a thousand percent sure your good, vastly outweighs anything bad with in you. I think what you are feeling is what I call the black spot on the page. This mark >"."<, on a sheer of 8.5" X 11" paper and think the paper is not perfect. Technically you are right, the paper is not perfectly white, but who's paper is perfectly white?
Any way Chrom. It is good to see you at least post something. I can't do much IRL and in person, but I can offer my cyber support, which I am doing. Lots of other people are doing the same so keep posting no matter what is happening or how you feel.
Hang in there bud. We all want to see you make it.
