Ah well, sometimes we must agree to disagree, eh? I'm ok with that. I value your opinion, whether we take the same view on everything or not.

If you do not and never have loved your wife, then I am both saddened and yet somehow in awe of you. Yes, your children are important, and I get the idea that your wife is really a great person. But what about you? I know it sounds selfish, and maybe it is, but don't you have a right to happiness too? And doesn't it worry you that your kids will have a slightly bitter view of marriage? They can tell, you know. Children can see when their parents have a loveless marriage. Just a thought. It takes guts to make that kind of commitment, to subjugate your own happiness to the integrity of your family structure.

As for being scared...no problem; I'm terrified on a daily basis. There's a song that talks about stepping off the straight and narrow and you don't know where you are...that's me. I had a life with an easy roadmap; then I decided to take a detour. My choice; no one's fault but mine. There are days when i wake up wondering what the **** I'm doing, that I'm leaving a good man that never did anything to hurt me. But I refuse to live a life of quiet desperation. I was not happy in my marriage and the outlets I was finding were only making things worse. The doubts don't scare me; if I had NO doubts WHATSOEVER, that would. If I have doubts it means I'm still thinking. If I suddenly stop questioning, it means I'm walking blindly without caring. I'm questioning these choices every step of the way, and I'm convinced that I'm making the right choices for me.