I think you have answered your own question. You deserve more than that and the sooner you realize that...the better for you and you children. If he comes around? Well then it is your choice. Take control of your life and your situation. Do things that make you feel better about yourself. Stop thinking that this one person will make you whole. Do it for yourself. The one thing I did learn from these boards is to stop waiting for someone else to make me happy or believing the only way I could be happy is through another person. I love myself. I deserve to be happy, but I am the only person I can look to when it comes to that. Someone told me to take charge and control of my life and my happiness. The minute I did, I could not blame any one else. You deserve that. to be happy. Make up your mind and figure that out. It was not easy for me. It was the best thing I have ever done. Hold on if there is something to hold on to. IF NOT...Find something worth it. You deserve that.
Its not about getting what you want, its about wanting what you already have.
