Sorry y'all, what changed is not so much my inclination to post but my actual ability to do so. I have often said that the reason I am so prolific here is because I have a day-job that allows me to be such. Well, things have changed at the day-job and I am no longer really free to sit on here for hours at a time reading/posting. Since I really do feel obligated to keep up with a lot of you and logging on resets my "unread" threads, I stay away until I have a bit of time to catch up.
Today, since I was pretty sure you may want to know what happened yesterday, I logged on even though I don't really have time to do much more than update my sitch.
SO, on that note, the day was nice. W asked me to take the day off from work which I did. We couldn't get our babysitter so the evening was going to be with the kids, as was the whole day. It went ok. The kids were misbehaving and we were somewhat stressed about that but overall it was good. We had a nice dinner and relaxing evening.
Since I got my W the ring and money is somewhat tight (and I knew she was going to buy me something still) I only got her a card. Actually, we decided to buy something we both wanted as a present to each other instead of doing much else. In addition to that, she also got me a bracelet and a card.
As for any romance, well, nope, none of that. I will say that over the past few days she has been more touchy/feely but the barrier is still up to a certain extent. I can feel it slipping now and then but it's still there sadly.
This morning she asked me to stay with her for a few minutes in bed and as I was getting up I told her in as non-dramatic way that I was disappointed that there was no romance last night. She didn't respond. I held her for a few minutes and then went to work.
It was a good day and honestly, I didn't expect anything more. I was actually surprised that she got me a card and the bracelet. I was almost expecting her to bail on the card.
In many ways, the sitch is still the same, still making SLOW progress and still does not REQUIRE me to do anything different. I am not resenting her as much and my anger is way down. Once I realized that my expectations were getting the best of me, no matter how justified, I was able to get control over my emotions.
I will try to be on when I can but for the time being, I will probably be on a lot less than in the past. I am sorry for that. Please take care.
