Thanks hon. I know, I am not a fraud, I just feel like one, not because my changes are not real, but because I realize SHE was too big a motivating factor. That's all.
As for the standing up for myself, I think I do more of that than I post... or maybe i don't, and I DO think she sees the reality of the sitch, it's just that she's SO far in fantasy land it doesn't matter.
She even pulled out the "I just want the kind of love I see on TV and in the movies, where I get swept off my feet and I can't help myself." BS...geez.
For me, this will either work or not. She admitted that I had changed but A) She didn't believe it was real and B) That even so, she still didn't feel the "spark" and kept comparing it to what she felt for "him" and it just wasn't the same...well, duh, but WTH, who am I to say that.
Anyway, I don't see much choice for me here, or should I say I DO have choices but it's clear to me what mine is and I am going to just "do it" come hell or high water.
