SS, I know the no contact rule is a stupid idea at this point. She's clearly not committed to working on things, at least not to the point I am.
To everyone else, thank you SO much for your words of encouragment. I know progress has been made, but to hear your W, whom you THOUGHT had committed to working on the M full time basically say that she's still not sure OM is the wrong thing to do and really, for the first time, entertain the idea of a D (I brought it up, not her), it's a little disheartening.
That said, maybe this WAS a good thing, I don't know. Like I keep saying, there was a LOT said by both of us and a LOT of new territory covered. I may get around to posting as full a recap as I can sometime but until then, I AM taking care of me, I have stopped ALL pursuit of my W (no more backrubs, lol) and I told her exactly why I did that.
We are roomates once again and while it sucks all to hell, maybe it's a tiny bit better than wondering what's REALLY going on.
The worst part now is that there is the possibility that she may see OM again and while I don't think I will leave, or try to get her to leave if she does and admits it to me, I am not too sure how that will affect me.
That's a bridge to cross when we come to it (er, or when I find out about it...may have already been happening).
