I'm destroying every thing I've worked so hard 4

[cat03]

I'M SO MADDDDDD
I can't belive this, I'm just making things worse and worse just when we had a good C session yesterday, talk me donw, anybody.

I guess I did this all to myself, while freakingH was paying his cc online I checked past posts, and ouf course!!! what the hell else am I going to find but hundreds of dollars to restaurant we went to for our anniversary years ago, to a portrait shop and other expesive stuff.

THe topper????????????????????? almost 800 at a nude club, yes sir, 800. 2 wks after he came back we went to vegas, he went earlier because fo his tickets, he wanted me there too but because of kids I could. Well, I found out, had a huge fight about it, says it was a gambling place, was just trying to calm down,I checked the place again and it says nothign about gambling but that is a full nude lap dance place with vip rooms to do you know what. GREAT, freakeing great, just confronted him about it & he swears he just gambled and only looked. Am I supposed to believe that/???? I'm just so mad I could kill someone, him

He comes w/ the story that he was still feeling depressed and made another mistake, that he did talk to me days later asking me to leave all that happened behind (again, he was home w/me t2wks before trip, no wonder he was all miserable and worried when I joined.

I can't f'ing go and eat out as I want, deny my kids many things FOR WHAT??? so I can pay this [censored] his escapades, I'm loosing it so bad @#$@#$@#@

Big liar, was never going to tell me, then was mad that I was snooping at his CC bill online and tells me it will be even harder to trust him, I honeslty dont care right now, I'm too mad to think straight.

NO freaking wonder he barely has interest in me, if I don't have stripper's breast it is because I breastfeed HIS kids, here I am , trying to look nice for him, to attract him to me, what the hell for, I hate him so much right now.