I don't know if I am or not Sandy . . BUT I sure want to try to be strong enough.
I guess I just feel like if I tell him he can't stay here with me he'll just go back down there to her. Maybe he would . . . No I don't think there's a maybe there. . . HE WOULD. He would feel that I didn't want him and he would run away. He won't be by himself . . . that's wrong. I have to make a decision . . . do I want to be with my H or don't I. DO I want to risk all the pain and all the worries . . . do I want to risk this happening again.
I think that if it means I get another happy 5 minutes of being with him . . it's worth the risks.
Maybe I'm wrong . . I know I need more time to think.
