I DUNNO how you get over that but what you are doing so far is awesome.
With time you will be able to see you will be better off without him and guess what seeing as he hasnt worked on himself he will take good old unreliable Kevin with him to her.
Focus on you and when you get down remember you are strong.
This will be the hardest thing you ever, ever do. You will see the rewards in the future.,
When I left my first H I knew I was doing the best thing for me and my kids. I had the mentality that even if we were to be alone forever at least we would be happy. I had hard times, sometimes I would only have enough after paying rent to buy a bag of potatoes but I was doing it ALL BY MYSELF. I PAID THE RENT BY MYSELF , WORKED 40 HOURS A WEEK AND WENT TO SCHOOL THE OTHER 40. Sure I had my ups and downs I would cry myself to sleep sometimes over the guilt( my kids didnt have their intact Family) but my ex had been so cruel to me I knew I was doing the right thing.My boys were only 4 and 6 at the time ,, now they are 17 and 15.
Guess what I helped my 17 year old be a good human being hes had a girlfriend now for 2 years and he RESPECTS her like you would never expect a teenager to respect his girlfriend. He has a job and 900.00 dollars saved in the bank.
Well what I AM TRYING TO SAY IS ITS OK TO BE ON THE PATH YOU ARE ON YOUR GIRLS WILL BE LEARNING SO MUCH FROM YOU .
WHOS TO SAY THE WONT GROW TO BE EVEN BETTER THAN THEY COULD HAVE WITH KEVIN THERE.
I have come to realize that I would feel like a failure if my 2nd M does not heal but you know what if that day comes and GOD does not restore my M, I will survive and put all my energy into making my kids worthwhile adults. But I am no failure, I just am a human being.
Sorry if I am rambling but I hope you get the point,, you can do this and maybe one day ( years from now) meet your prince charming and you'll make fantastic memories with a new start. Give yourself all the time in the world honey, I jumped into marrying my current H only a year after my D and I told him I loved him but wasnt sure I was ready b/c Marriage is a seriuos thing and I did not want to go into it lightly or ever divorce again and look at me now. TAKE IT FROM ME TAKE YOUR ,TIME TAKE YOUR TIME DO NOT LET ANYONE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT. You need you time and time to heal. Please do not ever forget that.
God bless