It's a NASTY day outside . . . DARK!!!
Days like this make you feel sad even if everything is going exactly right.

I feel like crap about myself today.
It'll pass . . . .I know it will.

I understand that I own a lot of things that made our relationship go bad. You can always find ways for everything to be someone elses fault.
I think that for the most part I really did try to be a good wife. So I didn't do a great job . . .
I certainly don't feel that it was my fault he found OW. I did NOT make him do that.
That's all him.
It makes me sooo mad that he won't even call and talk to me.
He left last Sunday . . . . almost 1 week. The only time I've heard from him was when I called him.
Yeah he cares about his daughters huh?!?!

OK sorry . . . feeling a little smart a$$ed there.

Well I had a good night lastnight. My two girl friends hung out and then a kid we graduated with called (one of my friends) and he needed to get out and talk to some people so he came down.
His wife left him for another guy . . he's got a two year old daughter . . that he loves and is actually trying for.
Up until today when they signed their papers he was PAYING all the bills (for her to live with OM) because he didn't want to abandon his daughter and see her go without.

I mean it breaks my heart.
He just kept saying, "When I said I do I ment it . . . why didn't she"
and I just kept saying, "I know exactly how you feel and I don't know."

OH MY . . .
WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE DECIDE TO DO THIS???
Reguardless of what I am . . . I think the fact that he had the OW before we were over is WRONG.
I could be CRAZY . . and I think I at least deserve for him to finalize everything before he fully moves on.

I don't get that. I just get shoved aside now.

I'm going to read some of my book "Live, Laugh, Love Again."
Today . . and I'm going to watch the movie that Kerry brought down . . Failure to Launch.

Soo . . at least I have a couple things to do . . other than the constant tasks such as my kids and cleaning and dishes . . . .

I'm really surprised this didn't lock out yet . . .weird!
I'll be around later . . .