Seperated . . soon to be divorced women. And maybe that's the cold hard truth. He would be loser. But then does that make Cassie a loser? Maybe she's what it will take to make my H happy. That makes me feel like $hit.
I didn't stop posting Amy . . . my friends have been here since two . . but they went to get dinner (and come back here and eat) so I hopped on quick.
My one friend bought me book
"Live, Laugh, Love Again" (A christian woman's survival guide to divorce).
I'll start reading it soon *maybe tomorrow*
I don't know why you see all those awful things Amy . . honestly. I ment honestly going out to a movie and maybe dinner with someone and coming home and leaving them at the door. I'm not looking for anything physical. I don't even want an emotional relationship . . really. I just want friends. . . and I always related better to the guys in highschool then the girls. I wish I had my best friend PJ around . . he and I would soak in a hot tub and talk for hours almost everynight. There was never anything sexual between us. . . we were just best friends. He helped me love myself and see myself as special. I wrote him a letter a few days and I hope he writes me back.
I'll come back around later and reply more to what was written. Thanks guys. Sorry I cocked an attitude. . . didn't mean to. I won't leave . . . I'll fight it out with you all as long as you all don't give up. Soon enough it will all come through.
Shippd . . quick . . I would LOVE for my H to come back and be my friend and work from the ground up. BUT he won't. It's over . . and I have to face that. Part of facing that is accepting that someday I will be with someone else (much as he already is.) Having those bedtime convo's saying ILY . . . all of that special stuff. . . *crying now*
Alimari . . . thanks . . . you mean a lot to me. Your post made me cry though because you said "Like a butterfly" that's what HE calls HER . . butterfly. Maybe it's symbolize a new life and a new start . . . I don't know. . . .
Anyway . . I have to go . .
Thanks guys . .
I'm going to start a new post for when this one locks . . it should soon .. .
