Quote: Oh it's not that we have to talk about it all the time. BUT if they find out that I haven't been following their advice I will be on the [censored] list and they will go ahead and let me know it until I start listening to their advice.
Ok, and it sounds like you can't stand not to have their approval, even more than you can't stand to be unhappy. Forgive me this, but so long as you feel that way, there is yet another barrier between you and getting what YOU want. Trust me, there is a LOT of that in my sitch too and you know what? I just don't talk with my family about it, and neither does my W. It works a LOT better that way.
Agian, why come here and ask us all to help you when you know damn well that you will not take our advice if it lands you on the $hit list with your family. Why bother?