Do you really know what is going on inside Kevin's head? How do you know that he didn't mean those things, and was trying to give the two of you another chance? Emily, as it's been stated before your actions, words, and thoughts are what are keeping you from bringing yourself back up off the floor. It doesn't have to be an all out war with Kevin, but you are choosing to make it that way. I know you said Kevin said all of those horrible things to you, but guess what you are not innocent either. You shared with us some of the words that you spewed at him. And I really don't blame Kevin for spewing back words at you, you are using your kids as pawns. Whether he is your husband or not he helped make those beautiful babies and he has rights too. I'll tell you what your girls will despise you when they get older when they find out that you were the one keeping them away from their father.