Thanks Alimari . . . you made me cry. I don't know what to do I am so confused. Now that RB has pointed somethings out to me I feel so torn.
A week ago I wanted more than anything to be with my H. Has that really changed. NO. I don't want it to be over, not really. I don't want him to hurt me this way. But he is. I have to deal with that . . tell myself I am better off without him. I read somewhere around here that in order to deal with some of the pain of leaving the WAS remembers all the bad things that have happened. I am doing that . . . I am rehashing every hurtful thing . . . it makes it easier to try to run from the pain. I need to stop running and deal with it. I don't want to. I just want it to go away. I am trying to be strong and happy for my girls. I have to go for awhile . . recharge my batteries and try to come to grips with my emotions.
