The last time I talked to him he wasn't civil.
He told me how much he hated me . . . all that crap.
He said he's sorry that I'm hurt but he's not sorry he's doing this because he ACTUALLY loves her (like he never could me)
It was just about the worst convo. I've ever had with him.
I was trying to be level headed and talk to him about the kids.
I asked him to please try to make this make this pleasant so that maybe we could stay something close to friends for the kids.
He told me NO . .he hated me . . . etc.

We talked a little about custody but he just kept getting mad. I was trying to get things straightened out.
I asked him to try and do it with me now before it became a battle later.

I am NOT letting him come to my home to see MY kids. That's final. . . if that makes me "trailer trash" then so be it.

Oh and by the by . . I NEVER said he was abusive towards the kids . . . so I NEVER put their safety at risk.

Do you want me to sit around and cry all day because he's left me to marry some other women or do you want me to keep telling myself I'm better off and I don't want to be with him.
Right now I am just trying to get through the day and nights . . . and the only way I can do is by convincing myself that I don't love HIM . . . because he certainly doesn't love me.
I have no one to love me the way a H is suppose to love a W . . . so why should he have 2 women loving him that way.
I have to step aside you've all said.
That's what I am doing . . . and this is the only way I know how.
I can't make myself do it when I think I love him and yatta yatta yatta.
I have to do it now . . .

Maybe that makes it the wrong approach but hey . . I am trying.

I am doing these things because he is choosing to be the way he is.
I bet he won't call me again . .EVER . . . not even to check on the kids.
Why should I let him come see them?
If he doesn't care enough to call once a week or once a month why then when he decides once in a while that he'd like to come see them should I just allow it.
I promised myself I wouldn't allow him to keep walking in and out on us. Well he choose OUT so out it is.

The girls are young enough that they would never hurt if he would just leave. . . they would know some one else as daddy and NEVER know the difference.
He could still be in their lives (like an uncle) . . . it's not like he EVER took interest in them before.